Tonight I was playing wow, when a dear friend of mine told me that his wife had just suffered a miscarriage.  It brought flooding back to me, memories of my own miscarriage.  I want nothing more than to console his wife, after all I KNOW what it’s like to feel the pain of the loss of a baby.

Anyway it got me thinking, and I scrounged around till I found a poem I wrote when it first happened (May 1999, although I don’t recall when I wrote the poem, sometime in the next year or so).

I did a google and found my poem listed as “Author Anonymous” but I assure you I wrote this poem.

Without further ado, here it is:

I Miss You Little One

I miss your laughter
Although I’ve never heard it
I miss your warm hugs
Even though I’ve never felt them
I miss watching you dance
Even though it never happened
I miss your kiss
Although I haven’t had one
I miss our talks
Even though we have never directly spoken
I miss watching you sleep
Although you never dreamt in my house
I miss waiting for you to come home from school
Even though you’re never gone
I miss kissing your scrapes
Although you’ve never been hurt

I miss you  little one.

This weekend, the boys (even Cleveland) and I wenti to Wisconsin Rapids to see my mom.  While there we visited Down on the Farm…a family run farm business that has a nice Halloween event for kids.  It was a great time.

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We went off to the pumpkin patch today in search of the best pumpkin.  Check out Wilfert’s Farms Ashten was off with a friend so it was just the two younger boys, Brad, and I.

Lots of fun!

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It was to my great excitement, that I got to attend Blizzcon 2008 in Anaheim this year.

I took Ashten with me, was such a blast!  We met up with several of my guildmates.

Matt “Gutz” came from Texas, then we had Brett “Sao”, Ryan “Meecrab”, Kent “Hayward”, and Kody “Cyrotic” who all live in SoCal.

We went to Knott’s Scary Farm the first night, then the convention on Fri and Sat.

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I’m off to Blizzcon 2008 this week in Anaheim so in preparation I’m doing some cosplay.  My costume is ready now I’m making the Brutal Gladiator War Staff.  The in game item that the staff is based on, is pictured below Ashten and Ryan.

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Brutal Gladiator War Staff

Glad I had my camera in the car….the pic directly below is from my iphone.  The others I took after I decided I couldn’t let the opportunity pass me up, so I stopped and took the pics with my Kodak DX6490.